I am one of those people, who most say to " find anouther hobby." I happen to become new to the computer world and found it intriguing. However, my journey has not been a good one so far

.I went to anouther site asking for help and they made me feel /---/ that small. They first told me, to check out Php for idiots and I did. When I went back explaining to them, that I did not understand it, they pretty much got annoyed with my questions and gave me the brush off. I am not used to the workings of a website and wanted to learn. But I fear that I might be too old to learn, or just too slow to grasp the concept. Anyhoo, I recently purchased a website, got the PHP NUke portal up and I get all confused after that. I am having a hard time understanding the SQL and and Apache and and how to do the uploads in the directory. Basically, I need some one to refer me to a easier layout of the workings. I am not asking for anyone to do it for me, but I am hoping there is someone who has seen a reference guide, for the people like me, who are a little more slow on the uptake. I only been looking behind the seens of the computer since Feburary. I only ever used them for games and e-mail. I did manage to do a basic tuturial on HTML. I think I grapsed it well, so I can learn, just maybe a little slower tan most.
I know I am probably one of those people, you feel like saying find anouther Hobby, but please can someone help me?